No Make Up for A Week on Instagram
If you’ve read my book <<LifeStyle In White>>, you may know I like to keep my make-up routine pretty simple - just eye brow, lips colour with a little bit of concealer. Time to time, I used to do these steps when “I have to see someone”, such as work meeting, shooting for my social media or dating (I tend to wear as less make up as possible). Hiding my imperfections from others has been my practice for years.
Last week, because I had a wart removal treatment (warts is a contagious skin virus, usually on face/ neck area.), I have to keep my face clean for a week in order to heal. To be honest, I was a bit overwhelmed right after the treatment, there are over 100 small wound on my face (just like getting much more freckles all over my face.).
Because of the redness and the pain caused by the removal treatment, I went back home immediately after the treatment. It wasn’t a pain that someone could not stand with it - but in order to stay away from infection (since wounds are still new), staying home is the best idea.
The redness has lessen 50% but wounds are still healing. I went to do some grocery shopping in the morning with my sunglasses on. At least the big lens covered 70% of my wounds and by doing that people would not focus on my face. In another word, the sunglasses make me feel safer by hiding my imperfections. It is also crucial to protect the face from UV light after the treatment.
I tried to stay away from cleanser, moisturiser or other daily skincare routine - but just washing my face with water and pad it dry. Wounds were starting to heal and turned into scars, and that was the start of another painful stage, scars are very noticeable and my skin were super-itchy. I had to control myself from scratching and let these scars dry naturally so to let it heal better.
我不夠勇敢把我的 #NoMakeUp 照片發到社交媒體。
It was the 3rd year anniversary with my boyfriend and we have a celebration plan. The yoga lesson went better than I imagined, sweating did not caused my skin to be itchy. (Yes, we planned to start work out plan together!) We visited the pier again and wanted to take some pictures for memory (as we took pictures in the same place when we first started dating). Having zero make up on, I was very shy in front of the camera, even I tried to cover my face with hands. I tried to wear my sunglasses too attempting to look better in picture. I even tried to some phone app with filters to “polish” my bare face. And I ask my boyfriend once in every 10 minutes: “Am I looking ugly on photos?”.
I am not confident in my own skin.
I am not brave enough to show my #NoMakeUp look for photo & the social media world.
Some filtered photo took by Iphone.
My skin has became better and the scars are now turning small and less noticeable. Trying to not wearing sunglasses as much as the last few days; trying to accept the way I look, and to be more confident in front of pictures.
I looked back into these photos I took yesterday - yes, I was not perfect, and none of them look like pictures I took/ posted before. They looked real. And the imperfect girl on the picture, somehow has a different feeling. Even she is looking a bit tired without concealing her dark circles, looking pale without putting cheek colours on, she has a natural glow and her eyes are still bright.
My boyfriend told me he loved my bare skin and I do not have to put on make up to feel more confident - I am already beautiful in his eyes. And his words and actions worth more than anything, I believed in him!
This little challenge of wearing no makeup actually make me to rethink what confident is. Wearing makeup, hiding imperfections is a way of how I make myself feel safe - and how I look is directly affecting how I feel. My self-esteem is pretty much depends on my self-image, too.
I will go on wearing makeup when I feel like to be prettier or just to make myself happy. But I will also remind myself of this experience, and take chance to let my skin take breaks. After all, it is a choice of doing what you feel better. What is important, is understanding what make up/ hair-do /clothing meant to you, they enhance your beauty, but not to change you into another person.
“When I wear make up or wear good clothes, I wear them for myself.”
A little bit of make up do not hurt, right? :)